Sunt singura de doua zile. Absolut singura. De fapt, solitara. Nu am deblocat telefonul ca sa apas de doua ori pe al doilea buton din stanga, de sus, cu o linie verde, nu am mai intrebat pe nimeni ce mai face ca sa ajung sa explic in detalii ce fac, nu am pus statusuri depresive. Pentru ca nu mai vreau sa fac sa vorbesc despre asta. .

Incerc sa umplu golul cu nimic pentru ca din nimic se pot face atat de multe.

And i loooove Grey’s Anatomy. Din motive deloc altruiste. E extrem de reconfortant sa vezi alte povesti, relativ credibile, mult mai dificile de cele mai multe ori. Dar, de la distanta. Pe toate fetele. Sa ti se confirme ca exista mereu mai multe variante, ca toata lumea sufera, de fapt, si ca viata e naspa si e din ce in ce mai complicata.

Am douazeci de ani, am trei codite de ata colorate [doua geniale, una aiurea, dar pe care nu ma lasa inima s-o desfac] si de saptamana viitoare o sa incep sa traiesc din nou. Cu adevarat. Pana una-alta, ma duc sa fac curat in bucatarie. Inainte sa fac dublu click pe un alt avi al carui nume sa inceapa cu Grey’s Anatomy.

Niste citate mai jos:

Dr. Meredith Grey: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know. If you’re willing to take the chance the view from the other side is spectacular.

Dr. Meredith Grey: He who hesitates is lost. We can’t pretend we haven’t been told, we’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day, still sometimes we have to see for ourselves, we have to make our own mistakes, we have to learn our own lessons, we have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant, that knowing is better than wondering, That waking is better than sleeping and that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistakes beats the hell out of never trying.

Dr. Meredith Grey: A couple hundred years ago Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success “never leave that till tomorrow” he said,”which you can do today” this is the man who discovered the electricity, you think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don’t know why we put things off but if I had to guess I’d say it has a lot to do with fear, fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection… sometimes the fear is just of making a decision because what if you’re wrong, what if you’re making a mistake you can’t undo.

Dr. Meredith Grey: You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill… You’d lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming. They were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely ’cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they’ll open their eyes and it will all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale might be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away.

Dr. Meredith Grey: To be a good surgeon you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture, and close. But sometimes you’re faced with a cut that won’t heal. A cut that rips its stitches wide open.

Dr. Meredith Grey: No one likes to loose control, but as a surgeon, there’s nothing worse. It’s a sign of weakness of not being up to the task. And still, there are times when it just gets away from you when the world stops spinning and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn’t gonna save you. And no matter how hard you fight it You fall. And it’s scary as hell. Except, if there’s an upside to free-falling, it’s the chance you give your friends to catch you.